“God will deliver me from whatever trap the devil lays for me.” In my last post, I wrote about how I have been down and depressed. The root of my depression came from feeling that God didn’t want me down here anymore. My student loans were due every month and I felt like I should go home and work to pay them off. It was a burden that I couldn’t get off my shoulders. I couldn’t be happy, and the glass was always half empty. Thanks to your prayers, my student loans were deferred and it was confirmation that God wants me here! God delivered me from the trap of doubt that the devil laid in my path. The shadow is no longer hanging over my head and I am able to be the man and team player that God has planned for me to be.
Last Thursday, Driver asked if he could pray for me as I make my decision on whether or not I should go to Swaziland or not. It was a time where we asked God for confirmation on if I should go or not. Ever since I have been down here, that’s the one place that I have wanted to go! But I didn’t want to get to eager and let my emotions get in the way of Gods will. Over the next few days, God pointed me into the right direction. I was given support from people who I wouldn’t have thought would support me. I was given an email by a supporter telling me that I should definitely go to Swaziland and that they would help anyway that they could. Driver had the strongest feeling in his quiet time that I should definitely go and a leader in the youth group told me that anywhere I go, even if it’s Africa, that I could be used by God (he didn’t even know about my decision to go to Swaziland.)
I am just going to see what God does with it. I feel like I should go to Swaziland and if He wants me to go, He will pave a way for me to go. I recently read a blog article that really touched me and made me think even more about going. I just want to do what God has for me and I am going to submit and give it to God. I am content with what the Lord has for me and trust Him with my life. Please continue to pray for me as I start taking the necessary steps on going on this trip. Thank you so much for your prayers in this decision, I have heard God and I feel so close to Him right now! I wouldn’t want it any other way!
