Trusting God

    It’s so easy to for me to say, “I trust God with my life.” Yet when decisions need to be made, all I can do is stress about it. Our group was recently given the opportunity to be servant leaders for a one month trip starting in June. Which means we have the chance to go to places like Peru, Philippines, New York, Swaziland, Dominican Republic, Ireland, Kenya, India, or Thailand. Since I have been down here, the place that I have wanted to go to is Swaziland. It’s an amazing place and an amazing opportunity. I mean, when again in my life am I going to be able to go to Africa. The only down side is, I would have to raise more support…a lot more. I have been praying about it really hard, yet I haven’t heard anything from God. It’s really difficult to decipher between God’s will for our lives, and our own will sometimes.  So much of me wants to go on this trip, yet so much of me tells me I shouldn’t. I think it would be a once in a lifetime chance to not only get to visit Africa, but to also disciple and grow with the team of high school kids going out on the field. If you could pray for wisdom and clarity for this decision would be greatly appreciated.

    In other news, the youth group all nighter was a huge success. I got really sick in the beginning, but after that it was excellent. We did some group activities that held everyone’s attention and Caleb gave a great devotional in front of everyone. The guys and girls split up around 1am and that’s when the Halo began. We set up the youth room with 4 t.v.’s and 4 xboxs, all connected and ready for a tournament. For the guys, it was the highlight of the night. We made the teams fair and everyone got a turn to play. Caleb and I didn’t play because, lets face it, the teams couldn’t be fair. 🙂

    To be real with you though, I have been really depressed lately. I feel that I have been really attacked by the enemy and felt inadequate before God. I felt like I was a failure in the eyes of this world and that I am doing nothing with my life. Thankfully, God is good and sticks with me through the dark times. I got to talk to someone who is going through the same thing, and to just realize that Satan has no control over who I am or how I feel. I have to wake up each day and give the day to the Lord and know that I am not a failure in the eyes of Him. So thats what I have been doing, everyday I wake up and give the day to Him, knowing that He has full control over me and remember that I can’t go wrong in life by following Him. Thank you for your prayers and encouragement over the last month and throughout my whole trip. I know that it has played a huge part in the way that I deal with the enemies schemes and taking the steps to trusting God completely.