On Monday we decided to change things up a bit. Usually we would go over to the Gross’s and do a Bible study, but they are in Africa. Instead, we decided to go to Cici’s pizza and then do a Bible study back at our apartment. After we ate, Driver felt like we just needed to prayer for each other. He asked if we would go around and tell what we have been struggling with. So one by one, our team started opening up and letting each other in. We explained the struggles and the pain. We let each other in on the secrets and the depression. We then put our hands on the person and prayed for them. The words that came out of my mouth were not my own, but of the Holy Spirit. We spent like 4 hours in prayer for one another, just praying through the stuff in our lives that was keeping us from a close relationship with Him. It was amazing to feel Him in the room and to experience a time of such closeness with our team. I saw that the people on my team were just like me, struggling daily with the same things that I struggle with. That night we became more than a team of interns, but close friends that actually got each other.
When we first started praying, I told myself that I wasn’t going to open up to my team because of the way the team might look at me. The guilt that it would bring on me…i didn’t want to feel that and I just felt like it was easier to keep inside. But then I realized that those feelings are definitely not from God. He would never make me feel guilty or ashamed. How dare the enemy hinder me from opening up and seeking help from the people around me.
Yesterday, Seth Barnes wrote a blog about not just sitting around when the enemy comes at us, but to get angry about it. It really made me think about what the enemy is doing to us, to my family here in Georgia. They are picking us off one by one and even though we know their tricks, how blindsided we get when they attack. It is time to make God the one focus in my life, so for the next two weeks, I am cutting out my personal computer. It is turned off and every time I think about using it, I pray for strength. I thank God for who He is and what He has done for me. I sit in the presence of my creator and talk with Him like a friend. Because if I have that much free time, I think I can use that time for God instead of on the computer.
